the formless is forming, plus i suck

You are only as good as your last performance. Someone said this, I think, and if they didn't then they should have.

My last performance was not my best.

I go to places to play music on my own, it is part of my adventure. I went to Baltimore again, to play at The Depot as part of a real time collaboration experiment that may occur on a monthly basis. The collaboration part went fairly well. A live electric guitarist joined, and that added a lot, we had a nice array of beats and sounds, although it made me feel lonely for my guitar.

Then some of the individual artists took turns playing. They were good, they had some tracks well planned out but they were also trying out some new things, you could tell.

Then I played. I was using my MIDI Guitron to play, and I had dared myself to play completely improvised, and had sketched out only the barest things ahead of time-- the patches/synths I'd be using. I picked some drum beats more or less at random, and unfortunately didn't like what I had selected. So i played along with that for a bit and it was sort of.... darkcore with stupid beats.

Then I chose a little more appealing beat, something with a groove, and added some effects. This was a little better. I played along with that, but my patches were too... heavy.

So it wasn't a very good showing, I'm afraid. But the guy who had organized the event seemed ok all around, and I'm hoping it will happen again this month.

I'm going to start putting together the tracks for the next assortment. It is going to be a very measured dose, that is my first intuition.